Starting with the beginning, I remember my initial days in January. The atmosphere was more or the less same as now, with the end of the 00's decade and this year 2010 beginning which is to meeting an end. So many things happen over a span of time, and recollecting them is one pleasure that one can always get. I was in another city that time, Kota for my studies and a course. The anxiety of upcoming exams had me kept busy.
In February, I turned 18. Considered as something big, I didn't much celebrate or enjoy it though (as any of my birthdays) and was amazed (as always) people actually remembering it and calling me up. #small happiness in life.

After all the exams got over came some amount of time of freedom. First time went to organize a national camp with an overwhelming response of around 800 participants from all over the country based on the title 'Face Life Make Life' being hosted by Chyk, International youth wing of Chinmaya Mission held at a beautiful place surrounded by the mountains and nature called Chinmaya Vibhooti, a wide 70 acre campus of international status. CV is perhaps one of the most beautiful and peaceful places I've ever been in my life. Also had another opportunity to go on a trek on Indian Independence day. (See here)
However things weren't going so well as time went. They say happiness is short lived and shit can happen anytime. That was so dam true. Life became miserable (looks like those lessons I learned from that camp and all my life had to play a role here too). I did face a lot of shit in my life before, varying from health problems, disgrace, having to be with cheap shitty people (and their worse families too), having to fight for myself all alone, having to be considered different among everyone and so many others. But thats life and you got to live with it. Everyone has problems says people who try to console, and why me and this is what I feel (just like everybody else, probably)
But now things were equally worse - faired miserably in my entrance exams, was in a life/dream shattered situation, parents lost all sense of hope and trust, being treated like an outcast (as usual), closest & best friend whom I loved the most had a bad quarrel and she not talking to be for about 5 fmonths. In all this in one way or the other it was my fault and I had to live with it.
Though eventually everything went back to normal and two of the most significant things of my life happened this year.
Firstly after all the initial shit, got into SFIT, Mumbai University making me the most closest person living to the college as it is just a wall away from my apartment :D
Doing Computer Science Engineering, which I wanted to do, so happy in one way because I'm doing what I want. Important mark which will determine my life.
She was always there for me when I was down, even when my parents who criticized me badly of my failures. If I had someone to turn to, it was her. She was one of those who accepted me as I'm, because of whom I feel I'm a better person today. Not everyyone can influence you and mould your character into a better person.
This year things went terrible for some time. Despite our so strong bond, always had quarrels (which is a normal thing) but I committed such a mistake that I blew her head off (ya as usual I'm the criminal). One of the most worst periods of my life, its not that we didn't fight but for this time it went insane - didn't speak to me for like 5 months! Even ignored me right on face in her own house when I went to see her (and apologise countless times). I felt miserable and terrible.

Its real love if you and your partner can just sit there and talk about nothing and everything at the same time. Its all about connection.


And by the looks of it there are mostly going to come here in India next year! 2010 gave A Thousand Suns. Let 2011 give us Linkin Park :)
So thats it! Overall it was a good year mixed with every element of the usual and unusual, of great movies and good games, heart warming events and happiness. Feels good to remember the good old days. Lets see what the future holds.
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